I don't know why this is concerning me so much. It's none of my business, but it bothers me. I suppose that still having feelings for him means that I look out for him as well. He has a new girlfriend after 7 months, and knowing this has made me numb and.. well, I don't know. The same way I felt when Caleb got a new girlfriend back in our on-and-off relationship, except more mellow this time around now that I can control myself.

He said that he doesn't want to tell anybody who she is. This is what I wanted, actually. To go out with him one more time, and he wouldn't have even had to feel obligated to tell anybody about it unless he wanted to. I'm not sure why he's covering her identity, though. That's what's bothering me. Maybe he's uncertain about her, or she's moving away soon, or it's a long distance relationship, or she's cheating on somebody, or she'd die if she was caught going out with him, or something bad like that... What is the use of keeping something like this a secret to the rest of us? We don't care, but not telling us gets us interested. Maybe this is what he's aiming for. Perhaps he's faking it to try to fend my feelings for him away, but I doubt he'd put forth the effort to do that, nor would he express any concern about that in the first place. I just hope that he hasn't gotten himself into anything stupid.

I could go on with ranting, but I'm really tired. Although I don't want it to, this is going to be on my mind for quite a while, and it will keep that numb and throbbing pain steady and continuous.

Anyway, it's been a great week. Tomorrow's plans are falling through already, but I think it'll still turn out great!! :) I still have to clean my room. Oh yeah, rx bandits in 2 weeks!! Yesssss!

I can't believe that people still come to this site everyday. I haven't really been bothered to update for a while. Do you think you guys could leave your mark on the tagger or comments, please? I want to know who is still visiting. :)

I think that this summer has been the best I've had by far. Of course there's a couple of things that could make it better, but that's expected for everything. My other summers have been the kinds where you say that you're going to hang out with people, but don't, because you're constantly hanging out with 2-3 people, and that's it.

I'm going to the states for 3 shows. I'm pumped. Today I'm going to see Elise. I'm even more pumped.

Don't you hate when you have a dream that makes you so happy, and then you wake up and realize it was a dream? =\

So in the dream, me and him were talking on MSN and at one point in the conversation he said, "Jess, I have a a feeling I should wait longer to say this, but... Ignore our friendship. O_O..." That confused the heck out of me, and then when I was about to respond, my laptop shut down. So I called him and he explained that I should ignore our friendship and that he thought we should go out again. I was squealing and I got that happy rush. After a while of talking, he said he had to go. I jokingly said, "aww, how heartbreaking. I almost feel so sad!" and then I woke up. I still had that triumphant feeling of, "yeahhh I got what I wanted most!" and then I SLOWLY realized it was a dream. I tensed up and shouted. >:/

Anyways.. I'm supposed to be getting RX Bandits tickets and shawarma today. Tomorrow I'm supposed to be going to starbucks with some people, and on friday I'm most likely going to the mall, then work on saturday. Hmm, don't know what I should do for sunday. :)

Well, the last few hours of my life were thrilling. I had to go to 7-11 to get energy drinks for my dance exam, and I asked my stepsister to go. We ended up going in Josh's van, along with my other stepsister, Nathan, and Chris. LOL those guys are the kind of kids who do stupid stuff, which is lovely. So Josh is a crazy driver, you see. He stepped on the gas pedal and the seat that Chris was sitting on LITERALLY launched forward and he was stuck between the seat and another seat. Josh pulled over to take a picture, and then took off at a really high speed. Some old guy just STARED, and wouldn't stop staring until we were really far away. He looked over another vehicle, and then turned around and kept walking. We were all telling Josh to turn around, and he eventually did. When we passed the old guy, all he could probably hear from the van was "STOP STARING AT ME YOU PERVERT!!" and then we turned the corner. It was lovely. Afterwards we went back to my house and chilled outside and played guitar hero. I accidentally made my stepsister lose. I need to get rid of my bad guitar hero habits.

Well, it looks like I fractured my foot. I couldn't go to work today because I can't stand up at all, nor can I even bend my foot. I'm getting it x-rayed tomorrow morning. I hope it's broken. :P I don't really want to perform on wednesday and friday. I've been stressing out about it so much... This broken foot has reduced my stress level by 80%. :) I never knew I'd be happy having a broken foot. But I already miss working, walking, and dancing. Crap.

Me and 3 other people ordered a whole bunch of body jewelry on ultimate jewelz. It totalled to around $72 CDN (with shipping)... But we ordered a lot. I love how wholesale sites are just so... cheap. I'm real excited. :)

Man, I've got some serious plans going on here! I love how life is so busy nowadays... and I can accomplish everything with a broken(?) foot. Sweet.

I love how you guys don't leave comments anymore at all. :P At least I know you're all piling in for updates. Speaking of which, join my Guitar Hero Series Fanlisting. The link is on the side bar.

These past few months have been incredibly busy. I'm starting to realize why my hair is falling out like crazy--stresssss. It's not that I think that hanging out with people everyday is stressful, it's the fact that I have so much to do. This includes, but definitely is not limited to, my jazzy solo which will HOPEFULLY be a hip-hop duet instead, my irish duet, and doing some volunteering for my religion isu. May is going to be an uber busy month, and hopefully I'll actually get the #1 thing that I want accomplished.

I'd write about today, but I'm really tired. Well, me and my friend walked for like 4 hours and my legs have felt non-existent for weeks. I can barely hold myself up anymore. :| iuaeofmjnpakwfmjeapgvkijobp